Let's Celebrate, It's All Right!

I'm not going to go into a sappy what I'm thankful for post today. Maybe Wednesday or the actual Turkey Day... but I will say I am so happy for this week to be a short one!

I'm not getting to go to Kenai like I'd hoped, I think I'm okay with it. All three of us are going over to my g'parents house again this year. Hooray for crowded! blah. I think G'ma's looking at something like 15 people this year! yikes!

Nothing else is really going on. Had a weird dream about one of my classes last night... it was a good dream, but weird.

Gotta finish up a paper and harass Erin a bit on facebook. TTYL!

As much as I love that song from Cinderella I really hope that the words do not ring true. I had some VERY odd dreams last night that really weirded me out.

The first one was a HOusE episode that took over the house in Kenai. It involved a very large scorpion like bug that's poison would give some one syphilis in the brain. I have NO idea what brought it on, but we had Hugh Laurie running around our house yelling "moron" randomly and letting this stupid bug sting him. (I on the other hand was terrified of the creepy crawly!) Dr. Chase was also in the dream, as was one of the newer characters. After all of this terror filled drama... not a glimse of Dr. Wilson. My subconcious is CRUEL!


After waking myself up from THAT weird dream I started dreaming about work (it's my day off! WHY am I dreaming about that on my day off?). It started out well, it was a nice day, the crowd was pretty much standing room only - so I assume the good crowds we had yesterday are the reason for at least the start of the dream - and then it turned weird in a hurry. We had apparently moved locations and we were butt up against the mountain. A better view, IMHO, than the one we have now which is ship creek and industrial downtown Anchorage lol. But anyway, I'm tearing tickets and we have a bunch of Kennedys come in to watch the show. You know, THOSE Kennedys... ones that we'd probably charge double to get in because of their name! LOL (ok so we wouldn't do that, but I would personally be tempted to!) So I pulled Dallas aside and told him we had a political family among our guests and he was asking me to point them out when we hear a gun shot... and then up over the mountain and down over our fence next to the bleachers came a Chinese paper bomb (not even sure it's historically accurate, but that's what my brain told me it was lol) and it exploded right next to our bleachers, three more fired down until I woke up. I was just.... weird!


So yeah, I'm really hoping the song does not ring true any time soon!

I woke up crying and clinging to my pillows this morning because of a horrifying and very real feeling dream.

It started out where I was back in Kenai at the church in teh fellowship hall, we were having an end of summer potluck and everyone was there. We were laughing and carrying on and having a great time.

I almost want to think it was like the potluck that we had as a send off to the Nichols it was just that much fun - but without the lingering sadness.

The whole thing was going well and then the fellowship hall's kitchen phone rings and it's for my mom. She's talking on the phone and then a friend of the family comes up to me and tells me that my dad is dead. Just like that. It was a compassionate telling and all but it was just one of those things that was shocking.

My subconcious told me he was supposed to be out hunting, apparently in this dream there was a hunting accident and there was nothing anyone could do for dad. Why he was out there during a big church event who knows.

I remember running to my mom and screaming no no nononono! and my biggest thing was that I wasn't going to have a father daughter dance, and that I needed my daddy and all of that. Duane wasn't in the dream at all, which is weird, normally he's in everything, so maybe he was with dad? lol.

Anyway mom tried to comfort me and I pushed her away and went running down the hall to the youth room. Well, really Miss Chris' sunday school room (the way it was before dad knocked down the wall lol) and Pastor Robin was there and he was doing something on his cell phone/black berry (I don't think he even has one of those but whatever) and I just stood there staring at him. He looked up and said something like "I know" and I just ran over and fell into his arms and started crying

that's when I forced myself awake and I was bawling in my pillows. Yuka looked at me like I was nuts.



Fastforward to this evening and Judy's all ticked off at me because I want to call and just talk to dad, but apparently she thinks I'd only be worried had it been DAD. If it were MOM I wouldn't be wanting to call home. Um, yeah, well I've never had a dream like this before and I probably would want to hear her voice if the roles had been switched.

But yeah she SCREAMED at me and basically I went running into my room and that's where I'm staying the rest of the night. I don't get why being a daddy's girl ticks her off so much. Just because I'm his girl it doesn't mean I wouldn't find a dream like this about my mom just as traumatic!

UGH!

so yeah I'm a ball of emotions tonight. and no I didn't eat anything weird.