Okay, God! I hear ya!
So ABT is still in Romans and right now it's basically a message of "put on your big girl panties and get over it." Forgiveness, letting go of the wrongs you have in your life, being the bigger person...
At least that's what I'm getting out of having a more fullfilled Godly life. I have no idea of that's what Ben thinks he's talking about in Sunday School, but it's what I'm hearing.
And mainly the focus God has me on is this whole issue with Judy and Gaylord. I've been doing my best to find fault in every little thing they do, and I'm finally getting the message. It helped that I started reading the books that Brad sent me for Christmas, and it's THE EXACT SAME THING. Again, not sure if that was the author's intention, but God seems to be able to speak loud and clear. And it's a total God thing that these things all come together. It's almost spooky.
Anyway, God has been speaking to me in a BIG way over this. On Sunday we were encouraged to ask forgiveness of at least one person who we feel has wronged us and we were now holding a grudge towards. That is so me. I hold grudges big time. God has laid Judy especially on my heart. I have not shown the right attitude in all of this. God is pushing me to apologise and have my say... so I am planning to do that on Saturday when it should just be me and her driving out to the airport... If there's one thing you want to pray about it's those few moments I have to say the right thing and don't foul it up.
Satan has been putting up road blocks this week as I decided how to go about this. Monday and Tuesday were extremely trying... yesterday and today have been better. In fact, tonight Gaylord had me take his photo for his photography business (nevermind Judy tried to tell me it was for something else, but I'm honestly not as upset as I would have been this time last week) and he helped me set up my new equipment. So it was a happy night. No one has gotten on my case, so God's hand is evident.
Please pray that I can continue to let go and let God in this part of my life. Also pray for God to continue to give me some guidance with where I need to be. Erin and I are looking at getting an apartment in Missoula. It's kinda a joke phase right now, there's a lot that needs to happen. I haven't even talked it over with my parents. lol.
Well, it's taken me something like 2 hours to type this up, so I'm done for the night. Tomorrow I drive out to Settler's Bay for a hair appt. Yes, I know. It's stupid. But I'm not paying for it, to my knowledge, so I'm good... I think...
we'll see.
peacefulAt least that's what I'm getting out of having a more fullfilled Godly life. I have no idea of that's what Ben thinks he's talking about in Sunday School, but it's what I'm hearing.
And mainly the focus God has me on is this whole issue with Judy and Gaylord. I've been doing my best to find fault in every little thing they do, and I'm finally getting the message. It helped that I started reading the books that Brad sent me for Christmas, and it's THE EXACT SAME THING. Again, not sure if that was the author's intention, but God seems to be able to speak loud and clear. And it's a total God thing that these things all come together. It's almost spooky.
Anyway, God has been speaking to me in a BIG way over this. On Sunday we were encouraged to ask forgiveness of at least one person who we feel has wronged us and we were now holding a grudge towards. That is so me. I hold grudges big time. God has laid Judy especially on my heart. I have not shown the right attitude in all of this. God is pushing me to apologise and have my say... so I am planning to do that on Saturday when it should just be me and her driving out to the airport... If there's one thing you want to pray about it's those few moments I have to say the right thing and don't foul it up.
Satan has been putting up road blocks this week as I decided how to go about this. Monday and Tuesday were extremely trying... yesterday and today have been better. In fact, tonight Gaylord had me take his photo for his photography business (nevermind Judy tried to tell me it was for something else, but I'm honestly not as upset as I would have been this time last week) and he helped me set up my new equipment. So it was a happy night. No one has gotten on my case, so God's hand is evident.
Please pray that I can continue to let go and let God in this part of my life. Also pray for God to continue to give me some guidance with where I need to be. Erin and I are looking at getting an apartment in Missoula. It's kinda a joke phase right now, there's a lot that needs to happen. I haven't even talked it over with my parents. lol.
Well, it's taken me something like 2 hours to type this up, so I'm done for the night. Tomorrow I drive out to Settler's Bay for a hair appt. Yes, I know. It's stupid. But I'm not paying for it, to my knowledge, so I'm good... I think...
we'll see.
