Let's Celebrate, It's All Right!

Gaylord was in rare form ALL DAY yesterday. I was about ready to kick him at 8:30am! He chewed me out for being lazy and blah blah blah and all I wanted to do was slam my door in his face because I am sick of the crap. His anti-Erin and anti-my trip thing is getting so annoying. I'm sorry, when did you become my father? Or really anyone in authority over me... oh, that's right, never! (seriously why does his family want him back? he's a massive tool)

Then, when he was done ranting I shut my door saying I was getting ready for my day. Which I was lying because I hadn't even showered yet, but whatever. I just needed an excuse, ya know?

Anyway he starts knocking on the door telling me I can't do laundry (I hadn't planned on doing any anyway) because the toilet was broken and he had parts all over the place. Translation - he backed up the toilet and left the mess. I told him I wouldn't go in there and left it at that.

Fastforward to Judy coming home and she comes into my room and asks about the 'damage'. I told her Gaylord told me NOT to go in there and so I didn't so I had no clue.

Bubba REALLY clogged up the toilet and the water hadn't gone down and Noah's flood had happened on the floor (he cleaned up a little bit, I'll give him that). So she started in plunging and it wasn't moving at all. So she decided to go to Ace Hardware across the street and find something stronger. Just about that time Gaylord came home and basically ripped her a new one for even teh idea of going out and spending money that the water would go down on its own. Considering he'd been gone for 8+ hours and the water hadn't gone down at all in that time should be an indication that you can't just wait for it to go down.

Then he got pissed off because she dared to say that HE clogged it. He swears up and down she did it (never mind HE was in that freaking bathroom doing God knows what in there for an HOUR After she left. TOOL)

So Judy got all ticked off for him being ticked off and it was just really tense in the house for a while. I offered to help with dinner and she nearly bit my head off. So much for finding a guy to make your life better, eh?

He slammed the door of the computer room - his computer is dying and that was way more important than the toilet he flooded. So Judy cooked dinner (yeay for fried chicken) and even THAT wasn't good for Gaylord because it's so unhealthy (he's the dude with the fat gut who eats rich foods all the time I just wanted to deck him).

By this time Erin called so I was on the phone with her for about an hour and then Gaylord gets on one of the other phones and tells me to get off. Erin didn't hear him so he got PISSED and was BANGING on my door and screaming that I needed to get off the phone now and that it wasn't just MY phone and I needed to HANG UP NOW. So I got Erin to shut up (she was singing) long enough for me to tell her I needed to go ASAP.

Then the phone died on Gaylord (I don't think it died I think he hit the wrong button) and he threw it out of the room and got one of the other phones... that also died on him ( I still think HE did something to hang up ) and he was just so mad because the dang phones were all crap and he couldn't get his blessed computer to work.

I'd had it up to here with him and took my dog out and then went to bed.









This morning he just told me not to touch his computer (like I ever have anyway) and that I needed to stay off the phone. I want to spite him so bad, but I'm afraid of what sort of tantrum it'll bring on. He's such a massive tool. I'm sure he'll play perfect angel while my parents are here (and he doesn't want them here at all but tough cookies, princess).


I just find it interesting that this coupling that God helped with (they say He brought them together) also seems to be thwarted by God. I do believe that all of these little bad things that are happening have more to do with God's disapproval of this whole thing than anything else. Granted, I don't believe either one of them are Christians, but at the same time Gaylord alone has gone above and beyond what's normal in the sin department... it's just so frustrating.

I'm not saying Judy shouldn't find a guy and fall in love and all of that, but no one in her immediate family approves of how she's going about it. She keeps lying to everyone - including herself - when she says my mom agrees with this partnership... or that Tony (Tom's son) does. Tony and I talked the other day on the phone and I don't think he approves as much as she says...

But yeah. It feels good to vent. 32 days until I am out of this situation for 12 days... I cannot wait!

I've been doing my best to not get sick, but last night I was defeated. I don't have a full blown cold but I just feel incredibly run down. The three day migraine hasn't helped, either. It's managable today, though. Which is good, because I don't want to miss another one of Edgar's classes. haha!

We're currently watching Salvador in class, it is not a very good film, if you ask me. Personally if a film only uses the same three swear words and very little else, it's not worth watching. My paper on the film will probably not be very good. Then again neither was my paper on Outfoxed. And before you think I just defended FoxNews, I didn't. I can't stand the program either, but I hate that the people on the movie said that Fox is the only biased network out there. It's like the kettle calling the pot black. That the press tries to say they don't push one candidate or agenda over another is absurd. In a perfect world journalism would stay neutral but it NEVER HAS. Look at how the Revolution was started, or just about every war we learn about in school. It starts with some big wig deciding to take a side. Why else would celebrities keep pushing in the news about Darfur? Duh! The news influences people to think whatever way the news wants. We're just dumb enough to take them as truth.

That was the gist of my paper, I have a feeling I'm going to get a poor grade for the first time in his class because we don't agree on that. I have come to the conclusion that in order to get a good grade in journalism courses you have to blindly follow and agree with the prof or you won't get far. So it won't surprise me if Edgar is the same as just about every other prof I've had in that department. The only one I didn't have to worry about was Prof. Dillehey, but I haven't taken from him since that one class (I don't even know if he's still in the program!).


I also have no doubt the main topic of class will be Ted Stevens' concession yesterday allowing Begich to become our newly elected senator. Personally I am disappointed in my state's voters for two reasons. 1. we voted in Begich who is a moron (and I don't base that on his politics. the man is a moronic jerk who is only in it for the spotlight) and 2. we almost voted in a convicted felon. There was a perfectly acceptable third choice, IMO, and he was the one I voted for. Bob Bird would stand for Alaska and was not backed by a party or cause. Unlike Begich who allowed the very people he's promising Alaskans he will stand up against. Yeah. Right. Like they're going to pay for you to disagree with them. Fat chance of that.


Oh well. Six years from now we'll be sick of him (save for the church of Begich known as Anchorage) and we'll have someone replace him. Who it will be, who knows, but this is the first time in 40 years we've had two weak senators... Murkowski's just as big a joke IMHO and she's a "Republican". I quit! lol


I just called down to WDW this morning and paid off our balance. You may be thinking that we'd already did that, and we had, but with the new promotion they've got out (buy 4 nights at a resort and 4 days worth of park admission get 3 free) we were holding out hope for getting a Moderate resort - specifically the Coronado Springs. As you might have read in my last journal update. I am so very excited to be going there again. I told Erin she has to take a picture of me giving the resort a big hug. I've missed it. I could stay there every time and not feel like I was missing out on a thing!

Gaylord is home. Not sure why. Either he is checking up on me to see if I actually leave the house, or he keeps peeing his pants because he keeps having to come home to "change". I'm not sure that that is all about, but it annoys me.

It also annoys me that Judy borrowed a few of my CDs and I haven't gotten them back even though I've asked her about them. Then I get woken up at midnight last night because Gaylord is working on a stupid slide show or something and what's playing? Josh GROBAN... and it's MY CD. All you have to do is ASK, but it's really annoying that she leant MY cd to him without even asking me when she knows I've been looking for my CDs. I have use for those disks too! BLAH.


Yes, I'm a selfish little brat, but I'm just asking for a little bit of respect. Though, I haven't been the best of buddies with either of them as of late. I'm getting really tired of Gaylord trying to be the "man of his domain" and telling Judy and I what to do. He hit the roof the other night when Judy snow blowed the drive way. He said he'd do it. Yeah, well, it'd been four days since it snowed and you still hadn't gotten off your fat duff so sit down and shut up. He started yelling at me that I should have done it before Judy did. Um. I was in class when she did it. And YOU kept saying that it was YOUR job. So I stayed out of it.

Apparently he doesn't get enough jollies or something or he'd shut up and leave me alone.

He also decided it was his duty to tell me I was spending my money unwisely and that I was an ungrateful person to use my parents money in the way I was. Meaning - I shouldn't go on this Disney trip (Judy wants to go on one with him and he isn't into the idea). I got REALLY snotty with him and told him that it was MY money and ONLY my money that I was using on this trip. I worked VERY hard this summer to get it (ok so not VERY) and I saved it FOR THIS PURPOSE. I also got permission from my PARENTS (even though I am 23 and therefore an adult that does not NEED it, I still ask for it) and JUDY (whom I still owe for the last trip). I paid off a vet bill, a dentist bill, and a couple of other things before I booked the trip. AND then there's the check that came in September from the State of Alaska that was over 2,000 big ones (plus 1200 energy check). That was MY money, not my parents. I'm not using money from school or anything. I said if anything Judy was the only one who had right to say I needed to give HER the money and not go on the trip.

Then he tried to be her proxy and suggest that's what I needed to do. Considering JUDY was the one who said I should do it if I could afford it at the beginning of the summer, I knew that was crap. And if she DOES truly feel that way she should come out and say it. She's looking forward to 12 days of just her and Gaylord in the house with the dogs. She hasn't been this excited to be rid of me in a while (which kinda hurts), so I somehow doubt she'd be happy if we canceled this trip and I gave her the money.


Then Gaylord plays the wounded dog card about how he doesn't know how to get me to like him and sends Judy to make things right. How about stay out of my buisness and stop trying to be all controlling? I'm a bull headed REITTER. We don't take other people's crap lying down. You are not the one that is 'over me'. I am not your daughter, nor am I your wife (EW). I don't need to be submissive to you. so stuff it.


Isn't it amazing that I can make such a long entry when I have nothing of interest to say. I should just stop talking. ha ha. so I will. Have a nice week everyone (since it's almost over!)

Yeah, I'm back to feeling down on myself. I am so sick of pretending everything is okay. I feel so torn, frustrated, alone, and just ugh.

I got chewed out last night from Gaylord because he thought that I was talking down on Lutherens, that he's a devout one and he knows that we agree more than I said we did.

All I said was we dont get all excited about the first communion because for us it's not an age thing or something for kids/pre teens, it's when you get saved. period. and we celebrate that the day you are baptised.

I said nothing about how for a devout Lutheren, I haven't seen him go to church once (or even look for one) much less the whole living in sin issue at the moment.

I merely said that one of my best friends in high school's dad is a pastor in the church and that while we didn't agree on the minor we agreed on the major and that's all that matters.

Well that pissed him off and he dismissed me after that. BLAH!



Then this morning Judy got all pissy because I brought up the fact that I wanted to change the lighting on the outside of the house. Basically because Gaylord put it up it is perfect, I don't agree I think it looks tacky. Well she basically said I didn't have the know how to do it, that I would short the whole thing, and that if I did that then I'd be replacing the whole thing.

So yeah, the lesson of the last 24 hours is I'm stupid, I don't know what I'm talking about or doing, and I should just go away.










Yes, I am being depressed and complaining but I freaking can't vent anywhere because I'm never alone enough to call someone and scream into the phone. I got to do that yesterday afternoon with Erin for a while, but I felt like I was bringing her down so I stopped.

I cried all the way to the college today. And I'm about ready to do it again here in class so I better stop.



When watching 2 hours of skating is the highlight of my month, something's wrong.

So I'm in teh bathroom this morning and the phone rings and I can't get it in time so the answering machine picks up. I come out of the bathroom a while later and check the machine not thinking anything about it.

Turns out it's the still MRS. Gaylord. Yup. The one he left for my aunt. The one he didn't have the guts to face when saying he wanted a divorce. The one he just abandoned. That one.

The one my aunt calls psycho because this woman dares to be upset about the whole affair (which is what this is).

The tirade left on the machine was actually pretty tame, no bad words but a lot of hurt and a lot of anger. She could have said some things a bit more tactfully, but she has every right to throw a fit.

No doubt when Judy and Gaylord hear it tonight (mom said not to delete it) that Gaylord will call his wife and get all upset with her like she's the one with the problem.

I don't understand this whole thing at all. How can this be love? It's certainly not RIGHT whatever it is. And in the end I think Judy will be the one that's the most hurt in all of this.

The Mrs. asked my aunt what gave her the right to take her husband, and I'd like to know the same. Gaylord gave up thirty one years of marriage for this. Is he in this relationship for the long haul, or when another "childhood crush" comes along will he leave Judy asking these same questions (though she can't be as surprised if it happens considering what he did to have her).

It makes me have less respect for my aunt, and none for him. It's just UGH!

So Judy and Gaylord went to Wal-mart and shopped for halloween stuff.

Judy said she and I would do that later this week. But she decided that Gaylord would be a better choice.

so much for this whole 'yeah, I know I'm neglecting our relationship as aunt and neice, let's go shopping later this week when I get paid.'

I seriously can't take this much longer.