Let's Celebrate, It's All Right!

...I'm hiding out in my room because I'm so sick of Judy pretending that she thinks I'm good enough as a photographer. She's now not sure if she wants me or Gaylord to take Haille's Christmas pictures because "he's had more practice." Yeah, well, the kid doesn't like him - so we'll see how THAT goes. That and she said it'd be nice if he could get in on the Alaska Wedding Fair because it'd be nice to have a decent wedding photog in the area.

Gee. Thanks.

I mentioned Tasha Grossl as being one of the best in S. Central AK and she said I was biased. Um, yeah, chick gets called to all over and is one of the most expensive AND sought after photogs in teh state. But yeah, I'm biased.

Judy's still ticked that I've already said I don't want Gaylord to be on 'retainer' for whenver I get married. I'd like to have SOME say in who gets to be part of my day. If it's not Tasha it'd be Casey Chappel (because she'd either fly up here on my dime to do it, or I'd for whatever reason be getting hitched outside of Alaska - fat chance, but still...). For whatever reason that discussion still bothers Judy. Because it proves I don't accept Gaylord. Um, no, I've seen his wedding photography and if I wanted crappy run of the mill non-photojournalistic prison wedding photos I'd call him. It's not that he isn't good, he's just so straight up and down traditional and I'd rather not do that.

He also said that my work would be better if I tried to be more traditional (ie, no creative angles.. no 'fun shots' other than sunglasses for the guys and the girls showing some leg and the 'traditional' fun shots... the boring stuff). Quite frankly that's not me so if I ever find a guy and get married Gaylord is not the photog that fits me.

Not only that but I'd have to get a second eye because there ain't no way I'm letting a guy into the girls dressing room. Why do that when there are female photogs able to do just as much and more than he can?

BLAH!

That really wasn't what I was going to write about in here lol. We just got into it for the millionth time and I'm just so tired of it.

Anyway I applied with the local Census Bureau office here in Anchorage to be one of those annoying people that comes to your house and knocks on your door and counts you for the 2010 consensus. Hooray for me! Monday at 5pm I have to go into their testing area (Church of Christ close by) and do an interview, paperwork, and take a test (they want to make sure that I can read a map according to the guy I talked to). Haille will be here starting Sunday so I have to take her over to Judy's work before I go over for testing... The guy told me that I would be there for about an hour and a half ot two hours. I'm a bit nervous but hopefully it works out. It's a great hourly rate (17 bucks and change) plus milage! So that's pretty stinkin awesome. It's also parttime so I can still work on photography (hopefully).

I just hope that the Disney World trip won't make me inelligible as you have to committ to at least 20 hours a week. But I wouldn't think it'd be that big a problem, right?


Speaking of Miss Rae - I'm trying very hard to make cookies she can eat, but it's very difficult when the ingredients she can have are no where to be found! UGH! All I need is goat's milk BUTTER... but does anyone up here carry it? nooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo! BLAH! Poor kid needs Christmas cookies, ok?

there was something else I was going to talk about but I can't remember what it is... so after staring at this screen for fifteen minutes trying to figure it out I'm going to just sign off. ta!

Gaylord was in rare form ALL DAY yesterday. I was about ready to kick him at 8:30am! He chewed me out for being lazy and blah blah blah and all I wanted to do was slam my door in his face because I am sick of the crap. His anti-Erin and anti-my trip thing is getting so annoying. I'm sorry, when did you become my father? Or really anyone in authority over me... oh, that's right, never! (seriously why does his family want him back? he's a massive tool)

Then, when he was done ranting I shut my door saying I was getting ready for my day. Which I was lying because I hadn't even showered yet, but whatever. I just needed an excuse, ya know?

Anyway he starts knocking on the door telling me I can't do laundry (I hadn't planned on doing any anyway) because the toilet was broken and he had parts all over the place. Translation - he backed up the toilet and left the mess. I told him I wouldn't go in there and left it at that.

Fastforward to Judy coming home and she comes into my room and asks about the 'damage'. I told her Gaylord told me NOT to go in there and so I didn't so I had no clue.

Bubba REALLY clogged up the toilet and the water hadn't gone down and Noah's flood had happened on the floor (he cleaned up a little bit, I'll give him that). So she started in plunging and it wasn't moving at all. So she decided to go to Ace Hardware across the street and find something stronger. Just about that time Gaylord came home and basically ripped her a new one for even teh idea of going out and spending money that the water would go down on its own. Considering he'd been gone for 8+ hours and the water hadn't gone down at all in that time should be an indication that you can't just wait for it to go down.

Then he got pissed off because she dared to say that HE clogged it. He swears up and down she did it (never mind HE was in that freaking bathroom doing God knows what in there for an HOUR After she left. TOOL)

So Judy got all ticked off for him being ticked off and it was just really tense in the house for a while. I offered to help with dinner and she nearly bit my head off. So much for finding a guy to make your life better, eh?

He slammed the door of the computer room - his computer is dying and that was way more important than the toilet he flooded. So Judy cooked dinner (yeay for fried chicken) and even THAT wasn't good for Gaylord because it's so unhealthy (he's the dude with the fat gut who eats rich foods all the time I just wanted to deck him).

By this time Erin called so I was on the phone with her for about an hour and then Gaylord gets on one of the other phones and tells me to get off. Erin didn't hear him so he got PISSED and was BANGING on my door and screaming that I needed to get off the phone now and that it wasn't just MY phone and I needed to HANG UP NOW. So I got Erin to shut up (she was singing) long enough for me to tell her I needed to go ASAP.

Then the phone died on Gaylord (I don't think it died I think he hit the wrong button) and he threw it out of the room and got one of the other phones... that also died on him ( I still think HE did something to hang up ) and he was just so mad because the dang phones were all crap and he couldn't get his blessed computer to work.

I'd had it up to here with him and took my dog out and then went to bed.









This morning he just told me not to touch his computer (like I ever have anyway) and that I needed to stay off the phone. I want to spite him so bad, but I'm afraid of what sort of tantrum it'll bring on. He's such a massive tool. I'm sure he'll play perfect angel while my parents are here (and he doesn't want them here at all but tough cookies, princess).


I just find it interesting that this coupling that God helped with (they say He brought them together) also seems to be thwarted by God. I do believe that all of these little bad things that are happening have more to do with God's disapproval of this whole thing than anything else. Granted, I don't believe either one of them are Christians, but at the same time Gaylord alone has gone above and beyond what's normal in the sin department... it's just so frustrating.

I'm not saying Judy shouldn't find a guy and fall in love and all of that, but no one in her immediate family approves of how she's going about it. She keeps lying to everyone - including herself - when she says my mom agrees with this partnership... or that Tony (Tom's son) does. Tony and I talked the other day on the phone and I don't think he approves as much as she says...

But yeah. It feels good to vent. 32 days until I am out of this situation for 12 days... I cannot wait!

I've been doing my best to not get sick, but last night I was defeated. I don't have a full blown cold but I just feel incredibly run down. The three day migraine hasn't helped, either. It's managable today, though. Which is good, because I don't want to miss another one of Edgar's classes. haha!

We're currently watching Salvador in class, it is not a very good film, if you ask me. Personally if a film only uses the same three swear words and very little else, it's not worth watching. My paper on the film will probably not be very good. Then again neither was my paper on Outfoxed. And before you think I just defended FoxNews, I didn't. I can't stand the program either, but I hate that the people on the movie said that Fox is the only biased network out there. It's like the kettle calling the pot black. That the press tries to say they don't push one candidate or agenda over another is absurd. In a perfect world journalism would stay neutral but it NEVER HAS. Look at how the Revolution was started, or just about every war we learn about in school. It starts with some big wig deciding to take a side. Why else would celebrities keep pushing in the news about Darfur? Duh! The news influences people to think whatever way the news wants. We're just dumb enough to take them as truth.

That was the gist of my paper, I have a feeling I'm going to get a poor grade for the first time in his class because we don't agree on that. I have come to the conclusion that in order to get a good grade in journalism courses you have to blindly follow and agree with the prof or you won't get far. So it won't surprise me if Edgar is the same as just about every other prof I've had in that department. The only one I didn't have to worry about was Prof. Dillehey, but I haven't taken from him since that one class (I don't even know if he's still in the program!).


I also have no doubt the main topic of class will be Ted Stevens' concession yesterday allowing Begich to become our newly elected senator. Personally I am disappointed in my state's voters for two reasons. 1. we voted in Begich who is a moron (and I don't base that on his politics. the man is a moronic jerk who is only in it for the spotlight) and 2. we almost voted in a convicted felon. There was a perfectly acceptable third choice, IMO, and he was the one I voted for. Bob Bird would stand for Alaska and was not backed by a party or cause. Unlike Begich who allowed the very people he's promising Alaskans he will stand up against. Yeah. Right. Like they're going to pay for you to disagree with them. Fat chance of that.


Oh well. Six years from now we'll be sick of him (save for the church of Begich known as Anchorage) and we'll have someone replace him. Who it will be, who knows, but this is the first time in 40 years we've had two weak senators... Murkowski's just as big a joke IMHO and she's a "Republican". I quit! lol


I just called down to WDW this morning and paid off our balance. You may be thinking that we'd already did that, and we had, but with the new promotion they've got out (buy 4 nights at a resort and 4 days worth of park admission get 3 free) we were holding out hope for getting a Moderate resort - specifically the Coronado Springs. As you might have read in my last journal update. I am so very excited to be going there again. I told Erin she has to take a picture of me giving the resort a big hug. I've missed it. I could stay there every time and not feel like I was missing out on a thing!

Gaylord is home. Not sure why. Either he is checking up on me to see if I actually leave the house, or he keeps peeing his pants because he keeps having to come home to "change". I'm not sure that that is all about, but it annoys me.

It also annoys me that Judy borrowed a few of my CDs and I haven't gotten them back even though I've asked her about them. Then I get woken up at midnight last night because Gaylord is working on a stupid slide show or something and what's playing? Josh GROBAN... and it's MY CD. All you have to do is ASK, but it's really annoying that she leant MY cd to him without even asking me when she knows I've been looking for my CDs. I have use for those disks too! BLAH.


Yes, I'm a selfish little brat, but I'm just asking for a little bit of respect. Though, I haven't been the best of buddies with either of them as of late. I'm getting really tired of Gaylord trying to be the "man of his domain" and telling Judy and I what to do. He hit the roof the other night when Judy snow blowed the drive way. He said he'd do it. Yeah, well, it'd been four days since it snowed and you still hadn't gotten off your fat duff so sit down and shut up. He started yelling at me that I should have done it before Judy did. Um. I was in class when she did it. And YOU kept saying that it was YOUR job. So I stayed out of it.

Apparently he doesn't get enough jollies or something or he'd shut up and leave me alone.

He also decided it was his duty to tell me I was spending my money unwisely and that I was an ungrateful person to use my parents money in the way I was. Meaning - I shouldn't go on this Disney trip (Judy wants to go on one with him and he isn't into the idea). I got REALLY snotty with him and told him that it was MY money and ONLY my money that I was using on this trip. I worked VERY hard this summer to get it (ok so not VERY) and I saved it FOR THIS PURPOSE. I also got permission from my PARENTS (even though I am 23 and therefore an adult that does not NEED it, I still ask for it) and JUDY (whom I still owe for the last trip). I paid off a vet bill, a dentist bill, and a couple of other things before I booked the trip. AND then there's the check that came in September from the State of Alaska that was over 2,000 big ones (plus 1200 energy check). That was MY money, not my parents. I'm not using money from school or anything. I said if anything Judy was the only one who had right to say I needed to give HER the money and not go on the trip.

Then he tried to be her proxy and suggest that's what I needed to do. Considering JUDY was the one who said I should do it if I could afford it at the beginning of the summer, I knew that was crap. And if she DOES truly feel that way she should come out and say it. She's looking forward to 12 days of just her and Gaylord in the house with the dogs. She hasn't been this excited to be rid of me in a while (which kinda hurts), so I somehow doubt she'd be happy if we canceled this trip and I gave her the money.


Then Gaylord plays the wounded dog card about how he doesn't know how to get me to like him and sends Judy to make things right. How about stay out of my buisness and stop trying to be all controlling? I'm a bull headed REITTER. We don't take other people's crap lying down. You are not the one that is 'over me'. I am not your daughter, nor am I your wife (EW). I don't need to be submissive to you. so stuff it.


Isn't it amazing that I can make such a long entry when I have nothing of interest to say. I should just stop talking. ha ha. so I will. Have a nice week everyone (since it's almost over!)

If your guy doesn't win, please don't move - you can vote again in 2 years for congressional people and they have more power in the long run anyway.

Besides, if you're voting McCain and he loses - DON'T move to Alaska like everyone is saying they will. 1. we don't want you, and 2. you think the US is bad when it comes to how little freedom we have anymore - Alaska is worse thanks to the liberal heads of DC...

so please. STAY AWAY from Alaska, and I'll speak for Canada too. We don't want you lol Disgruntled people that don't know how the way of life is up here don't need to come in here and muddy things up...



Happy voting day, everyone.

Shae is untouchable! I'm sorry I said anything! LOL

My frustration is not so much on teh skaters as it is teh choreographers, I'm sorry that didn't seem evident, when it comes to these shows. There's really no variety and no spark. Yes, they're at the mercy of Disson's musical pics, but at least TRY. All group numbers seem to be posing.

I cannot afford to go to the shows like a lot of you can, and I'm glad to see that they aren't as craptastique as they appear on television, but I just feel the quality as a whole just isn't there. I'm all for cheesey (I like Too Hot To Skate, I mean come on!), but I can't just have cheese.

Shae is a lovely skater, I am impressed with what she does considering she's a freaking ice dancer. I just don't think she translates as well on TV - that's just me. I don't like most ladies skaters on TV alone... it just isn't the same.

I'm in a very ranty, jaded, annoyed, pissy place at the moment. I come here to vent. It's not that I don't like the skaters i'm talking about (I'm not a huge fan of Shae's but I do respect her work, and really wish Victor and she would do like Naomi and Peter and at least skate on rare occassions together...), I'm just not in a very happy place... I mean the only thing I have to look forward to for a while seems to be my trip with Erin... which is still two months and 8 days off, and then after 11 nights of that I'll be right back here. and so I'm just taking it out on everyone and everything...

so I'll make a mental note that Shae is off limits from here on out... ;)

Why use Tarasova? Why Bolero? AND WHY that costume????

BLAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Evan, dear, I love you, but WHY?

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I haven't found his LP yet, and I'm afraid to look just based on teh whining going on on Golden Skate.

not that I enjoy the Evan hate over there anyway. Double standards abound when it comes to Johnny fans vs Evan fans and vice versa. And before you go "well, Toni..." I know I'm guilty of it, but lately I've been defending Johnny... both "men" suffer from foot in mouth disease, and both have massive room for improvement in certain areas... both bring a lot of good into this sport....

...well... did... till Evan got Tarasovized (and can someone please explain how Evan's flailing is so much worse than any other guy out there? I TRIED to get annoyed by flailing, and yes he uses his arms a lot but I don't think it's flailing as so much as "look I can puncuate the music with my arms... flailing to me looks like a skater is either trying to take flight or they're drowning and trying to break the surface. Maybe i's because of how I define it, I dunno)

His SP makes me somewhat glad I can't go to Skate Canada or US Nationals... bet you didn't think you'd see me say that!

Seriously show the inside of Sarah Evan's mouth instead of a throw jump.

Granted it was Rena and greaseball, but still... why don't you cut away from them when they're posing and doing stupid stereotypical country western dance "moves"?

BLAH! I can't wait to take over the school these people on how to shoot a skating event.


Kurt's little message was so off the cuff, and you could tell he was worried about his dad he had tears in his eyes... praying Dewey beats this third go around!

Why is it that last year I couldn't find a Pirate costume anywhere and now they're all over, but I can't find a ghostly costume? Seriously??? Pirates and Sluts are the only two types of costume in this freaking town! UGH!

So now I'm trying to find something online and no one will ship to Alaska. BLAH! I'm gonna throw a major tantrum if this doesn't start going my way...

...maybe Amazon.com will have something.

Today was not a good day. It started off well, mostly. I got to sleep in a bit before getting ready for class. But it quickly went downhill. I got caught up in Dan In Real Life which was playing on one of the Starz movie channels this morning, and so I was late getting to my morning class. I did the speed demon thing only to have issues with parking and THEN I get into the class room in about two minutes to when class is dismissed... EARLY. Way early. I was NOT happy. All he did was read the syllybus to the class. I can read on my own, thank you very much. BLAH!

So I went and gassed up the truck, and grabbed something to eat and drink and got to work earlier than expected, which is a better than being late thing. But I didn't realize that when the guys hooked everything up they also... *tweaked* the speakers and so we blasted out the people during the 1pm show. I fixed it for the 4pm show, but then got distracted a few times, so Jake was uber loud and blasted the eardrums of all 30+ people we had there.

Top it off, I didn't vote in the primaries tonight. I am not happy about that. I could have done it this morning at school had I thought about it, but noooooooo I didn't even think about it until Ellie asked about voting absentee. BLAH!

Oh, and I missed class tonight because I COULDN'T FIND THE CLASSROOM!

So I feel *this big* tonight and I just want to SCREAM!

I so feel bipolar this summer, which I know I shouldn't joke about, and I'm not. But I've been all over the map today.

Started off great, Erin called to get my Airmiles Info for Alaska Air so that she could book our tickets and she got us airfare for $55 to Orlando. How? By transferring miles to make it so that we could both go on free tickets ha ha! She is awesome for more on that and the trip go here, please ;) - wdwbaby. Needless to say I am uber excited that the trip feels REAL now. And I have no doubt I will be able to afford it...

Then I get to work and Heather is there to train everyone on the gift shop stuff - which I am pretty good at, but it's always nice to see Mary Poppins at Wildride ;) I was tired and then extremely BORED when I was at work because EVERYONE left and I was the onliest one there and it was DEAD phone wise. Blah.

Then the show happened and it was uber fun and everything went well save for my minor detail of muting Dallas instead of Hannah during the first race. But he didn't notice and I would have gotten off scott free had I not been stupid and told him! LOL

Things were pretty much GREAT save for my screwing up basic words when talking - I am just so TIRED this week - and snapping at Jake. He's just rubbing me wrong and I know it's because we're both over worked and over stressed and it's just coming to a head. But I just chalked that up to not having a day off since I started work a week and a half ago.

Then Dallas and I got to talking about how Matthew did yesterday on the cues, and lets just say Dallas is not happy or confident in Matthew's ability to do the show by himself on Sunday. He's basically hinted that I will probably be coming in AGAIN on Sunday. Which I am not all that happy about. Yes it does mean more $$ in my pocket, and therefore that helps with bills and school and Disneyworld and all of that... but I really need a break. I am tired, cranky, and I'm just not able to handle it!

The one thing that I am glad about is IF it comes down to that I know all he'll ask of me is two and a half hours tops. Tomorrow I work 3 to about 5:30... and if I work Sunday I suspect I won't even be needed for that amount of time. Just basically from 4-5. I hope anyway.

Dallas is wanting to have Matthew come in tomorrow for the Sat. show so that he can work it with me watching him so I can have a day off (which it won't be much of one because I will have church, and I want so bad to call in sick for church but it's the first day of the new kids in my sunday school class and that just does not work). I'll just take what I get, but they are going to owe me big if I don't get a real day off soon.

Ignorant rude people annoy me.

There's a thread currently going on at a disney travel message board that I go on about celebrities that you want to see at WDW. Not there doing a media event, but just being their 'normal selves' and wouldn't it be cool if they were there when you were there. What would you say to them.

There's this one woman who is bound and determined to hunt out the stars and she said she'd have no problem going up and talking to them and asking for their autograph. Especially if it were Johnny Depp because he is fab.

Well, I agree. Johnny is amazing, but if he's there he's with his kids or he's doing a media event. If he's with his kids let the man alone. I said as much on the thread and she replied with the quote in my subject line. Um, yes he is a celebrity but he is one of those that has comeout and said that when he is with his family he'd much prefer to be left alone to be a family unit. I think that we owe him that much. Yes, he's a celeb. Yes, the no privacy thing has become the norm. NO that does not me that it is right.

Celebrities are people, even Paris Hilton. While she feeds off the attention there are some actors like Johnny Depp who shy away from that. Give them space. Know when to bug someone. Seriously, let him be Daddy Depp at WDW people!

UGHHHHHHHHHHHH

I so need a break from everything I'm about ready to eat people again.

Yes I'm still majorly p.oed that a certain annoying person has considered I am a nonfan of my favorite sport. That it's just 'something to talk about' for me. BLAH.

Well, maybe he has a point. I am not going to Worlds. I made that decision at US Nationals this year, I'm also not attending US nationals in January. Not a big shocker because we all know where I will be basically that same time frame.

I will be at Walt Disney World with my best friend. Why? Because we rarely see each other because she's down in Montana and I'm in Alaska. It's not a crime to have more than one obsession and Disney just happens to be one of mine. I know I don't need to explain myself, I'm entitled to like what I do and go where I want.

Anyway I got an email from the 'representative for my area' for the 2009 World Championships and I emailed them back saying I would not be going to worlds and that I would appreciate it if they would take me OFF of the mailing list. When I can go for a longer period of time to an over priced theme park and stay ON PROPERTY for less than what I would spend for the NOSE BLEEDS at worlds then I'm going to the over priced theme park.

I got a very curt response from the representative. I have the same feeling about Nationals - it's just not cost effective or me to go. As much as I love spending time with the gang, and hob knobbing with skaters and watching nail biting competition, I cannot justify the cost when we're treated like crap as spectators by the USFSA. In my own little way I am just going to protest. It won't matter much in the long run (and I'm helping a person on the Disney Passporter Boards figure out what she wants to see at nationals - got her hooked last year lol!) but I just can't personally do it.

So yes, I hereby declare myself a nonfan. I am a non fan of the ISU and USFSA's stupid and crappy treatment of me the fan. I will not stuff their pockets so that they can further stick it to me later. IF that makes me unworthy of posting on a certain message board then so be it. ;)

I woke up crying and clinging to my pillows this morning because of a horrifying and very real feeling dream.

It started out where I was back in Kenai at the church in teh fellowship hall, we were having an end of summer potluck and everyone was there. We were laughing and carrying on and having a great time.

I almost want to think it was like the potluck that we had as a send off to the Nichols it was just that much fun - but without the lingering sadness.

The whole thing was going well and then the fellowship hall's kitchen phone rings and it's for my mom. She's talking on the phone and then a friend of the family comes up to me and tells me that my dad is dead. Just like that. It was a compassionate telling and all but it was just one of those things that was shocking.

My subconcious told me he was supposed to be out hunting, apparently in this dream there was a hunting accident and there was nothing anyone could do for dad. Why he was out there during a big church event who knows.

I remember running to my mom and screaming no no nononono! and my biggest thing was that I wasn't going to have a father daughter dance, and that I needed my daddy and all of that. Duane wasn't in the dream at all, which is weird, normally he's in everything, so maybe he was with dad? lol.

Anyway mom tried to comfort me and I pushed her away and went running down the hall to the youth room. Well, really Miss Chris' sunday school room (the way it was before dad knocked down the wall lol) and Pastor Robin was there and he was doing something on his cell phone/black berry (I don't think he even has one of those but whatever) and I just stood there staring at him. He looked up and said something like "I know" and I just ran over and fell into his arms and started crying

that's when I forced myself awake and I was bawling in my pillows. Yuka looked at me like I was nuts.



Fastforward to this evening and Judy's all ticked off at me because I want to call and just talk to dad, but apparently she thinks I'd only be worried had it been DAD. If it were MOM I wouldn't be wanting to call home. Um, yeah, well I've never had a dream like this before and I probably would want to hear her voice if the roles had been switched.

But yeah she SCREAMED at me and basically I went running into my room and that's where I'm staying the rest of the night. I don't get why being a daddy's girl ticks her off so much. Just because I'm his girl it doesn't mean I wouldn't find a dream like this about my mom just as traumatic!

UGH!

so yeah I'm a ball of emotions tonight. and no I didn't eat anything weird.

I am watching MSNBC this morning, and me not being Catholic I forgot that The Pope would be the main topic as he spoke at Mass. So I'm stuck watching the 'worship' of the Pope.


I don't get it. I honestly don't. Protestant and Catholic Christians alike are falling all over this man like he's Christ. Believing if they just touch his cloak their lives will be all the better.

I hate to break it to you, folks, but he's not Christ, and he ain't Holy. There is none but ONE who is, and He hasn't come back yet. He might be leader of a big group of churches but he is not THE Church. The Church is the BODY of BELIEVERS IN CHRIST, not the Pope. The Pope cannot redeem you or save you or forgive you - only God through Christ can. It's CHRIST'S blood that was on that cross, not Pope Benedict, or John Paul or Mother Teresa.

The Virgin Mary did not stay a virgin, either. She had other children apart from Christ and they weren't all miracles. Joseph was the true father of the other children, not the 'adoptive father'. She also is not a deity and she's not God, so she is NOT a window to forgiveness. Praying to her to be your messanger is futile. We get to God through ONE PERSON, and that is Jesus Christ.

Jesus had to die for his mother, too, lest we forget. He died for the Pope, btw, just in case you didn't know.

The Pope is just as much a sinful being as you and me. He cannot save you, he cannot be Holy (that doesn't happen until he gets his new body in Heaven), he cannot do anything but bring God's word to the people. Don't kid yourself into thinking otherwise.

When religious tradition gets in the way of the relationship with Christ, something is truly wrong.

So yeah ABC is showing Toy Story tonight and I'm watching it until CSI comes on in half an hour. LOL I lead such a productive life.

Actually today was pretty good. Went over to the church this morning and got right into work. Finished Moses and the Burning Bush, and drew David Slinging towards Goliath on another wall and almost have it completely painting. Mrs. Joy finished her cabinets, and got more paint on herself than on them. It was highly enjoyable... I was laughing so hard! LOL She totally cracks me up! That woman is amazing, but not when it comes to painting!

My feet really hurt, which just proves that I'm 1. overweight and 2. not going to be going for a full time standing job. LOL.

Can I just rant for a minute? I ranted about this on LJ but I figure I'd bring it here too. No worries it's not a political or religious rant. It's just a rant on hypocrasy lol.

We have 7 fires on the peninsula, one close to where I am, but not dangerously so. Needless to say there is A LOT of smoke. That is to be expected. The really surprising thing is how much smoke is also in Anchorage. While I understand that it hurts those with breathing problems/allergies, I am not mad at those people. I'm mad at the ones they are interviewing on the news. This one in particular is also interviewed whenever greenpeace needs someone to talk to them. This is where the hypocrasy comes in.

Forest fires are nessecery to keep the forests healthy. Right now most of the spruce down here are dead or dying due to an infestation of Spruce Bark Beetles. Because of politicians in DC we can not cut these trees down because that would "destroy" the woods (last I checked they were already destroyed) so the forest people are wanting to just let the forest fire go it's course and are only containing it as far as keeping it from jumping the river or getting any closer to homes.

The people of Anchorage are whining because their homes smell smokey. Big. Flippin. Whoop. This is a good thing for the environment. And this greenpeacer really ticked me off. She's whining that her "new carpet" would now forever smell like a campfire. If she really cared about the wildlife like she is always quoted as saying maybe she'd be happy that the dead spruce was going away and then later this summer we'd see new birches popping up so that the moose could feed in the winter and we'd have a healthy habitat again. But no, because it's inconviencing her and others, we have to stop the fire. So yeah, I'll just get right to flipping the "off" switch for the fire *rolleyes*.

My feeling is, if you want it gone get off your fat butt and come help contain the flipping thing. If CANADIANS (you all rock this week!) can find time to do it (and I KNOW you all aren't smelling our smoke) then ANCHORAGE-ITES certainly can! /rant

I so love Toy Story... LOL

"Buzz-Buzz-Buzz Lightyear to the rescue!"

"*gasp* I'm lost! I'm a lost toy!"

Ok so I am going to go hit some message boards and then I don't know what else


"Sheriff, this is no time to panic..."
"This is a PERFECT TIME TO PANIC!"

but I can't seem to stop talking...

I am so sick of the liberal groups that feel like attacking one of their own, and one of my "career heroes." Steven Spielberg is being critisized this week because it's been 30 years since JAWS came out and it's "because of him and his movie" that there are fewer sharks and more shark killings. Because he "unfairly portrays great whites." I agree, Bruce was a pathetic excuse for a shark. LOL His rubber jaw, his fakeness. But it was the best special effects of its time. YES a lot of people are freaked out of the water/sharks because of that film. One of my friends mom's is deathly afraid of the water. But she was a young girl when she saw it. Not an adult. Grow up and realize shark fishing is fun for some. We're not fishing them because Spielberg told us to! *hugs Spielberg* Congrats on 30 years of amazing success in movie making, Mr. Spielberg!!!!!!!!!!!!


Green peace annoys me to no end. For crying outloud Spielberg's as bleeding heart as they come. I think he's cruel for portraying T-Rex as a meat eating monster! I should sue! LOL The stupidity of these claims is just so freaking annoying. I'm sure Alien Activists will be all over him for is portrayl of eville aliens in War of the Worlds. ;) Actually maybe all of them attacking him will make him realize he votes for the wrong side and he should turn Republican. Hey. I can dream ;)

ok so that's all I wanted to rant about... I leave you with ( the latest star wars quiz! )

oops, almost forgot, some of the quotes were not guessed yet:

2. "I'm your wife! I'm the greatest good you're ever going to get!"
7. "I've worn lots of shoes. I bet if I think about it real hard I could remember my first pair of shoes."
17. A: "We were baptizing Henry Clay." B: "Baptising Henry Clay?" A: "Yes. And he must have been awful bad, because it took two dunks to save him!"
18. "Like if you shoot yourself in the foot? Don't do it. You'd be dead before you realized you'd accidentally pulled the trigger."

After my emo evening post yesterday, I went to class. I was told that staying abstinent and being "Southern Baptist" was not a good thing for my sex. That until I've had a sexual relationship I am not a "woman". Yeah, my new US History prof sucks. I almost want my other prof back. This woman basically told me after class that I should be ashamed to be a Southern Baptist because they believe in holding women back. (ie, no women pastors, anti-abortion, conservative, etc) It really pissed me off and I spent the 30 minute drive home venting on my aunt. So yeah it was fun.

I then called and talked to Erin (bowlingbrat) for an hour after I got home and ate my Taco Bell (yum). I miss her, but it was great to talk to her, and just catch up. She has more "semesters" and "midterms/finals" so she studies more than I do. LOL But we had fun, and we laughed. And Erin informed me that she likes Heather more than me because Heather is nicer (see, Heather, you turn everyone against me! LOL). Just a few minutes with Heather and Erin bonded I guess. Odd. LOL.
Anyway she wanted me to let Heather know that so, there it is ;)

I'm also blessed to know the people I do. I love that I know so many of you. I love that I got to know Dale Gregory and Melissa and Denis. I love that I have the opportunity to work on their site. I felt very proud to just do graphics, but to be given this awesome responsibility of representing them online is just amazing for me. I enjoy it, and I'm very thankful for that opportunity.

I get embarassed when my dad gushes about my opportunities, but I'm thankful that I have a daddy that loves me and is proud of me. I'm thankful for a mom who pushes me and nags me, because she loves me. I'm thankful for a family that yeah I complain about, but that ultimately support me and want me to do well.

I'm thankful that I live in America. I'm even thankful that I was here during the 'reign' of Clinton. Sure I don't like some of the things I have to deal with on a regular basis (like being in college and being one of the only conservatives in the class that is run by someone who enjoys bashing Bush UGH). But all in all I enjoy this country and its freedoms.

I am thankful to get to go to college. Yeah it's a drag most days. And yeah it's liberal all the way. But I am thankful for the opportunity.

So yeah, I guess I'm blessed. :)

someone please tell CBS their sound system still sucks


that being said. I'm all for freedom of speech and what not. And yes the song was up for several thousand nominations and what have you, but why did we need the whole "American Idiot" song? so much for brining the country together (but Hollywood is only interested in helping the world, not their own country... "Vote or Die" *rolleyes*)

I just found it completely tacky. Here we have a tribute to the Tsunami victims and then later to Ray Charles (why didn't they do "America the Beautiful" ? It's the only one that didn't even acknowledge it.) and then right smack in teh middle a hateful song. 8 years ago if a group sang a song like that about Clinton they wouldn't have made it on the stage, much less in teh nominations

yet they say our president has a closed mind... I think both sides are equal in the venom (no doubt I'm pissed now)... but at the same time, I wouldn't have enjoyed a "bash Kerry" song in February anymore than I enjoyed the "Bash Bush" song.

I'm pmsing, which could make for a good reason to be upset, but I don't think that's it... I just want to know why we have to be so tacky in these award shows... all I wanted to watch was Tim McGraw sing, was that SO much to ask?


I will give you credit, other than Gag-me Day, the Award show as not at all political when it came to speeches...

I guess they're all going to wait and bombard me during the Oscars! LOL


Queen Latifah (sp) rocks my socks, she is amazing. I love her!

Who is this Kayne West guy? I loved his acceptance speech. especially that last line.

John Mayer's "Daughters" song was interesting as well, and his acceptance speech was cute 'I still don't think it was the best idea for a single' too funny.

anywho I am going to take myself to bed... in a pissy mood. Totally against the Bible (ie "Don't go to bed angry") but I will watch some Fresh Prince[another liberal show lol, maybe I'll watch something else... oooo murder mystery marathon on Court TV...] and laugh and then fall asleep....


















oh, and Flo, if you want to delete my reply feel free too. I was really needed to vent lol sorry if it ticks you off (I seriously can not be PC. I was not raised that way lol)

Pug hugs,
-Toni

( I'm gonna get 'spiritual' and talk theology, sort of, so I am cutting to it, not only that it could be a spoiler for some... )

before Heather brings her butt kicking gear to Portland... I will just say that I think the worst is over. The Reitter side of my family can't be in the same room for more than a few hours, and Christmas Day makes it 3 days... so tension is high. But it seems to get worse every year. I don't know why I am so sensitive about my weight. I know I am over weight and headed towards obesity... I'm not OBESE(or at least I hope I'm not) but really I feel fine with who I am. But then Grandma starts in on "you're so fat" "you don't want to look like (your friend)" "don't you think you've had enough cookies this year" and I just couldn't take it. I let off steam left and right and it just got worse. So needless to say I got pissy and that caused a lot of the problems later on.

When I came on and ranted with R rated language(at least for my family) that was right after Grandma belittled me with how rude and inconsiterate and selfish I was for trying to get her up to speed with a movie. She said I "gave it away" (It was JTT's movie "I'll Be Home For Christmas" and I sooooooo did not give it away) however DAD did five minutes later, and she didn't even say anything! I was like I just couldn't do anything right!!!!! I was just got fed up and wanted out.

So tonight we all watched me at age 3 unwrap a crapload of toys (and clothes, which you could tell I was *thrilled* about) we had a few laughs at everyone's expense (dad's "segment" was indeed the funniest!) and I think that helped a lot. However don't be surprised if I come on tomorrow and rant some more LOL I expect it will only get worse...


and since G'ma and G'pa (whom I love dearly, I don't know WHAT was up G'ma's butt today) will be down until after Duane's adoption (Dec 30th) it should be loads of *fun* (then again my behavior might send them packing after tomorrow LOL)

so yeah, Heather, keep your kick butt attitude safely packed away at home ;) LOLI think I'm fine (I just need some space to rant!)

I want to thank all of you who commented in the last couple of entries (and the emails! They were sweet too!)

This group of skating fans(and others who are on GJ) is fast becoming my source of sanity (scary isn't it?) at LEAST 90% of the time... and 10% my reality... I so wish we could all just live in our own little skating fan world and never have to deal with the crappy everyday one!

so anyway... we're back to having a Merry Christmas

I love you all!